New laptop!

So recently, I've been attempting to reinstall windows 7 ultimate on my old HP pavillion tx2500 series laptop, BUT failed tremendously and ended up causing an error 17 on the system. For those of you who have no idea what that even means, basically the system HALF installed, thus leaving a ton of "registry" files un-installed and missing. So, in desperate need for a functional laptop, let alone the machine itself, I set out to find a decent and affordable netbook. Time passed and boxing day came, and all the netbooks were out of sight. I was getting desperate. Then one night I was working and saw a netbook on display at my store, and noticed the chiclet-like keyboard on it, and decided, "fuck it. I'll buy the damn thing." and what started off as a jokeful comment, turned into an actual purchase. Hours pass and I actually get to turn it on to test it out. I'll tell you now, I was skeptical at first, but I was surprised at how much this little machine can really do.

For the record, the netbook I ended up purchasing was the Samsung N220. And on that note, i was never a fan of many samsung products, but they lately have been proving to be very useful products! this machine in particular allows for full instalation of a 64bit operating system, as well as a hefty battery life! in addition to that, it comes with this samsung added feature called "chargable USB" which dedicates one port off the device to charge things via USB when the machine is completely powered off! so aside from being a nice, compact, little netbook, it also serves as an external battery charger!

I'll tell you what, this machine can prove to be EXTREMELY useful. and even if you're using the crap out of it, with bluetooth and wifi enabled, you can still get 8-10 hours of use out of a full charge.

now, like all good products, there is bad. in this case, i dont like the fact that it comes equipped with only 1GB or DDR memory like most netbooks, but its nothing i can't fix/change. also, in regards to the keyboard, its very cleverly spaced, but in my experience thus far typing (even as I type this!), my biggest problem/issue has been the right handed shift key. why? its wayyy too small! if they would have just placed those extra buttons near the other shift key, it would be the ideal netbook keyboard. but as of yet, every capitalization and question i have input manually has been a pain in the ass.

... I also just noticed that the key next to the shift key, and the one diagonally from it are exactly identical.... therefore elimenating the use of that key to begin with... so wtf samsung... wtf.

Well, I'm tired, and I have a day off tomorrow, which I dont feel like sleeping away, because I want to go shopping. until then!

-L

Post 29: Complexities of the Homo-Sapien

I don't know what this blog is about to be honest. Haha, I mean, I've been REALLY anxious to write something lately, but I have a problem. This "problem" consists of not being able to focus my thoughts into one complete idea. Now a days I have way too much going on in my head, it causes problems. Problems like thinking too much. To most, if not some people out there, it causes a great deal of anxiety and distress. So with all that said, let me try my best to sort all that out for the record.

So here I am. In Florida still. It's been 2 years since I've dropped out of school with high hopes of moving on with my life. Instead, my life has had a seemingly opposite affect of my past ambitions. Here I now am, stuck working at a minimum wage job, with a nearly impossible goal. Whats this NEW goal you ask me? simple, Go to Canada, go to school, finish school, go to japan, live there for a few months, come back, live life. Travel if I'm even capable of doing so. At this point in my life, this seems like only a dream. Recently, my father proposed to me that he would help pay for my schooling and my moving over to Canada. I honestly don't think he'll pull through with his word. He never does. But AH! such a minute thought. School never was important to me because it never presented itself as something I could deem as important. In more ways than one, it has failed me. But in retrospect, would it make me content? I know for sure, I would attend school, not out of the sake of learning, but for the same reason as High School. That being just to get it out of the way. I guess one of the reasons that I dislike it so much is basically because I'm conforming with something that I don't feel like conforming to. It's pretty annoying.

I recently read through a few old poems I wrote back in '05, and wow. As bad as my handwriting and grammar was, the things I wrote could easily relate to my situations now. I believe I wrote something like "living in a waking dream, where nothings gets done nor accomplished." Haha, ironically enough, I was an optimistic emo, but for the wrong reasons I suppose. I had the right Idea; apathy was always the key. But being apathetic, is easier said than done. It's hard not to give a shit when the world around you seems to fall out of place. Sometimes I wonder what it's all worth, if I would survive, if things would change. There's just this strong sense of nostalgia while I think because, in the long run, I just feel like only yesterday I just started high school, and now here I am, stuck in a rut. I guess the reason for that is because I've been listening to a lot of music I used to listen to back in the day, and it brings back a lot of memories. Am I really living a dream? will I wake up? Do I want to wake up? I don't know. I just want things to make sense. I just want to KNOW what I'm doing. I guess I just want to understand.

Hah sorry about that, I just re-read what I wrote and to me it makes no sense at ALL! ah! I guess I'm not ready to blog about this yet. I'll be posting some old poems I wrote. I'll put up one poem per post.