Post 20: --

I'll post soon (: for now though, might as well just gather up the fun moments and pix and what not, then upload them all here to make one big and hefty little blog.

Post 19: Long Stretch

Reaching into the second week or my working cycle and awaiting my "final" paycheck of this month. Reason i quoted final, Is simply because I plan on leaving that dreaded place once and for all. Although, my reason for leaving would later result in possibly being re-hired again in the same establishment, I would much rather work to get the money to fly her over, than worry about later problems. So far I have a little over $400 in the bank, and my upcoming paycheck will/should be over $300. I've been working under 40 last week and this week isn't any more, so the total should be 40 something hours worked by the end of this week. Which is why rough estimate is around 300.

In other news, My portfolio launched today! but what sucks about that is that it's on of the ONLY pages on my web site that is fully complete with the exception of my splash page. Even worst, It's probably the most laggiest of the pages. What I mean by laggiest is very glitchy. For some reason it seems to completely drag the browser down in speed. Even though no flash nor AD content is visible, it still seems to be slower than a snail. But I suppose until i figure out a way to make it faster and better, This is what I'll have. I'm not too disappointed in the look though (: it's ALMOST exactly what I sketched it out to be! I should probably do that more often.

So, Starbucks is playing its old tricks once again; getting my hopes up about a job there, then crushing them by completely ignoring me and neglecting my existence. But I will continue persisting. I mean, come on, $9/hour doesn't sound bad, no? nor does $7.15 @ starting, right? Heck, I'm definitely down for that! So much better than getting paid minimum wage in Taco Bell. Yet if things don't go like I wold want them to, one of my final choices is Boston Market. It's awkwardly across from where I work now, but they pay much more than Taco Balls. Not to mention, I have a silent connection with the place as far as my history goes. And on top of that, who DOESN'T love the chicken from there?! It's like they marinate it with crack and a hint of ecstasy. Never the less the food is good, and business is good as well.

And to my addition of job options, I'm also considering taking up modeling again. All I need is two pictures of myself to send in. I guess it's not hard, just getting accepted is a bit annoying, mainly because I'm kind of on a limited time schedule. It makes very quick cash and to a very hefty amount too, but the only problem is getting in. I'll hope for as much as I can but It might take me a few tries (or so I think). It's either that or some online web-design gig that might come up spontaneously. Although such a thing has never happened, I can still hope!!...

Bottom line is that money matter a lot right now. In some sense, It always will matter. But right now, in particular, It matters a lot. It matters so much, it even has the power to bring me happiness (crazy, I know)! If anyone were to aid me attain some currency, I will be indebted to them. Not that I mind, but in my opinion, that's a major step into helping someone; not many people would even consider helping anyone by giving them money. So on that note, I suppose you can say that this is what they mean when they say, "desperate times, call for desperate measures."

Post 18: The Start of Something Bad.

So as of today, my life has turned a new shit point, and has now slid further down the stream of piled crap. Listen, all I want is for me to get my damn paycheck, then buy her the ticket so she can come here. Not that complicated. But no. Life, being a bigger asshole than me, threw a slimy shit ball right at me about 2 days ago, and what happened was the manager screwed up my paycheck.

"But Leo! how did he mess up your paycheck?? He's the manager; shouldn't he know what he's doing?"

Yes, audience, he SHOULD know what he's doing, and I strongly weigh emphasis on the word "Should". See, what he did was he pretty much did not include a good chunk of my hours worked. Thus in result, my check added up to be a total of $143.55. Now, that's not all. Not only did he miss a huge portion of my hours, but he also didn't pay the agreed upon rate for my position. It was indeed a huge mess, and the fact that I didn't even know the first thing about fixing it, worried me that I wouldn't be able to. Eventually, the assistant manager told me that they fixed my paycheck, and that it should amount in the next paycheck. Now although I did complain to him that the paycheck was short of hours, I did however fail to mention the fact that the agreed pay rate was also no included in the paycheck. At this point I don't know what further action to take upon having that fixed. Hopefully I can work something out while it's not too late.

Once I can straighten my check out, and all is good on that end of the issue, then I will immediately proceed to the near Starbucks coffee shop. From there, I will negotiate for an interview and see if I can score a position within the facility. If I triumph, then the result will go as follows: I give Taco Bell my oe week notice prior to resignation, inform Starbucks of my transfer within the following days, and if I'm lucky, I should start there as soon as I quit my job at Taco Bell. Now, if none of that occurs at all (if not by order), then I suppose the next taken step is to search for a job (using the same methods as for the Starbucks) until I find one with a higher paying wage than My current job. Of course, I wont quit until I have another job I can hop to.

And for the record, I am doing this job for the paycheck, but above that, I was also rather curious of what occurs within the confines of that fast food restaurant. In addition to my curiosity, I also learned quite a bit as to how most fast food facilities should behave and should manage. Although I was the one on the outside, sort of just watching everything occur, I got a pretty good idea as to what should and should not be done. Therefore, with the benefit of getting paid, I also learned quite a lot about a field/area in which I was positioned in.

Aside from all the work shenanigans, my family is also in quite a bit of turmoil. Heh, I can't even call it that anymore. Honestly, I don't know what it is. My dad, above all, is being stupid. I don't know when he would realize that his reasoning is irrational, and that out of all the possible answers to a question, his is always the wrong one. He has to learn that just because you give an answer that has relatively more words than it should, and includes some sort of philosophical sounding saying within the response, does not make it any more right than someone answering each question with a question. There's things in life which you do, and things which you don't. The ones which come in between, relatively are the ones based within our own psyche.

All this and more, honestly, I don't even know if this is only the beginning, or the progression of misery, furthermore leading to a horrific outcome. I just want this all to be good again; to maintain an acceptable equilibrium is simply fine by me. Like I mentioned earlier, all I want to do is work to fly her over here, and so I can eventually go over there for school. That's my plan. That's what I want to do. Ironic you may say, for a kid who dropped out of school, I still want to go to it. My reason for dropping out wasn't to just rid myself of high school. I just hated the school I was attending and they left me no other choice but to drop out and get my GED. So far, most businesses and "professional" establishments I've witnessed withing the Florida confines is anything but professional.

Tomorrow I work until 10pm. Someone please kill me. Or at least offer me a better job. I can't stand this fast food restaurant that I work at. Starbucks will do. Much appreciated.

Post 17: Some sacrifices...

I hate my life. What a lovely four words to start off a blog. But seriously, can I really love my life at this point? Let us keep in mind that, despite the current circumstances and other inconveniences, I have in fact improved since the very beginning and even before that. Improved in what you may ask? Well of course i believe i mean moving forward within life; overcoming the obstacles and derailing ones self from daily mundane activities, into... well... another order of daily mundane activities. That being said, let us recap what has progressed: I'm out of school, I have my license, and I have a job. Furthermore, I have a better idea of what I want to do in the future. But, there is a downside to it all. Although I am done with school, the future in my education has nothing to do with the past year of my american education. Even though I have my license, I still don't have a car. Therefore, owning a license to some extent is pointless and has minimum purposes. And the job I have, haha, well, let's not get started on that, shall we? All I will say is that it's by far one of the worst experiences I have ever had working. On one hand I am paranoid that I will get fired for something completely ridiculous and unreasonable, yet on the other, I would be glad to get rid of such a burden.

True, life for me this past (almost) year has progressed quite a bit. I'm just disappointed that it could have gone faster. Knowing that all that has been done, has been done so with ease. I simply wish my laziness hadn't intervened and slowed me down to such a point. And I guess with improvements in life being mentioned, my job hunt continues as I seek a better job, a more comfortable environment, and friendlier employees (although I am aware that there's always one who is going to be a total asshole).

In all honesty though, I don't work well under pressure. Nor would any wanna-be ruses inflict any sort of immediate and accurate action from me. In fact, all that would do is intimidate me, thus forcing me to step down my guard. Maybe I should just work at Google (: then again, scripting PHP is such a hassle.

Post 16: Sometimes, you just can't complain...

It's been a while since I posted here, yet then again, I always write that.

I got that job, by the way. Yeah, I'm officially over a week into working at the good ol' Taco Bell. To be honest, It's by far, the worst working experience I've ever had. Everyone shit talks, tons of stories about hos getting fired and who is working slower or faster than the others. All in all, the whole system they've made up for themselves is bound for failure. Reason they haven't completely run out of business in that corner is mainly because few smart people actually work there and actually DO the right thing.

For the past week, I've been in what may seem to be some form of emotional turmoil. I was really sore at first, but I believe I've gotten used to all the movement (and non-movement) done within the facility. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm a very determined worker. And as shitty as this job may be, I'm still willing to work there for her. Basically, all of this, is done mainly for her arrival here. It was the main intention I had in getting employed (that and aside from moving to Canada).

Post 15: A New Chapter For Life to Pester

So it finally happened! I got a job! Not the best of jobs, but a job nonetheless. Where you may ask? Why at Taco Bell of course. Why would I work there? Well they called back for an interview; the ONLY ones who called back for an interview. Might as well grab opportunity while it's still fresh no? Although it did take them about a month to reply and call back, but hey, it's good enough for me. Now I should be able to fly her over with no sweat what so ever. I just hope I can last working there for more than a month! If they fire me before then, well, then I'm screwed!! Nothing can be worst than working there, yet it's just the same if I don't. Ah the curve balls life throws at me; how does it EVER expect me to catch them all with one mighty blow? I suppose I'll never know. But I sure hope that I can at least sustain the hardships given, otherwise I'm done for.

Post 14: Oh life, where art thou

Today is September 25, 2008, 54 days unemployed since my return from Toronto. Fucking great, right? Nothing great about it. On one end I'm relaxing and what not, but I don't really view that as such a good thing. Now, whenever I am relaxed or resting, I feel useless. I feel that instead of laying around, I should be doing something. And I'm not talking about free, cheap, "beaner", labor. I'm talking about labor you get paid for. And not shit minimum wage. At least a dollar or two above. Seriously fucking annoying.

That's pretty much how I've been feeling lately. Really not much to it. I really just wish a job would just fucking fall in my lap sometime soon. I can't stand being at home any longer and having to watch her continuously wait and loose hope for both of us. I honestly can't stand it; It breaks me just watching what he have slowly begin to deteriorate before my very eyes.

She's supposed to come see me this December but that would only happen if I make it happen. Everything, is reliant upon me. If you've ever heard of the expression, "Carrying the world on your shoulders.." is EXACTLY how it feels like at the moment. The world, my world, is on my very shoulder. I'm so determined though, I really am. I can't let this fall through. I just can't.

Final point: I need a job ASAP.

Sometimes the world can seem so perfect and fair, and yet, it still manages to be a deceiving asshole in the end. I need this. I don't want to let her down.

Mini-Post: Struck

I'm speechless. Not in a good way.

Post 13: The Long Awaited Update

I apologize for the elongated hiatus I've been on. To be frank though, I haven't really felt like updating this much, since I really didn't know what to put or even say. But seeing as to how I'm now more willing to update on my life thus far, I'll attempt to put it as simply as I can:

I recently came back from my trip in Ontario, Canada and it was A M A Z I I N G! I'm definitely more than considering on living there by summer of '09. I also got to see her and my heart began to beat like no other. For about 1 month I lived with her and it was the highlight of my trip. Also at the time I was there I made it official, so yes, I do now have a girlfriend. The downside: she lives far, thus making it long distance. But no matter, I will (like i said earlier) move there and hopefully study there as well. Besides, I like the north WAY more than I do the south. Also, aside from relationship status, I'm 18 which means I'm now eligible to get a somewhat better-ish job than before (if I can even GET a job that is). Unfortunately though, my luck hasn't been too striking in the employment department. Yet no matter that, I still will try hard for some employment, whether it be part time or full; freelance or factory job, I will do it. I am VERY determined at this point to get what I want and to live my life like I would want to. And I wont stop until My life is the way I'd like it to be. Meaning if it NEVER happens, then I'll never stop.

That's pretty much as New as my life gets, but on a side note, I'm trying to make it into college but tuition fees have been killing me. So if you would be so kind and donate some money (could be 50 cents if you'd like) to my paypal, I will be ever so grateful. And If you identify yourself via e-mail, then I will surely reward with as a thanks! The donate button should either be located on the bottom of my blog page, or you can also find it on the left column on my myspace page.

Well folks, I suppose that's about it for today! check back soon, for I WILL be updating this time as much as I possibly can.

P.S. Hurricane Fay is a bitch. I wanna bitch slap her. That is all.

Post 12: Monotony in Retrospect

So, I've noticed I haven't written in here in quite sometime, so let me fill you in on whats been happening (as far as interesting points of preferance go).

Last weekend was kind of... well, interesting. If you include Friday, I was supposed to go to some graduation party, but the person giving me directions to the location kind of sucked (considering their directions consisted of "trailer park by the school" and "really close to there"). Then, Saturday was kind of a long day. First in the morning, I slept. At that time I was trying to sleep the whole day away. My dad kept knocking on my door and calling my phone in attempts to wake me so I can help him do something. To be honest, I could care less if this something was to fight a damn tiger, I was tired and I wanted my sleep. Eventually, by the hour of 5:20PM EST, I decided that maybe he had a point. Maybe I shouldn't sleep the day away, for there might be something good to happen. So I got myself up and asked my dad what he wanted. As I walked into the garage, my dad asked me to move the car into a different position. I didn't really care why, so I just did it. No questions asked. As I was parking the car in the requested region, I looked back to see as to where I was reversing. What caught me in a bit of a surprise was that I noticed huge appliances blocking my vision. This became quite bothersome in my task to park this car. But I continued along anyway, with the dark monstrosity that loomed in the back. Once I parked the car, and got out to open the back, I noticed two things. Fridge and microwave. What the hell? Why is there a Fridge and a microwave in the back of this car? and why don't they look "new". Once again I took upon my no questions asked rule, despite of my curiosity. I helped him remove the two appliances from the microwave. But to my surprise, that wasn't it! He told me he has to go back with me to get more. I was obviously lazy and didn't want to go. But in the long run, my curiosity got the best of me and I ended up going to see where this was at. In my own mind, I thought his friend was giving him these appliances, thus I tried looking not too much like a bum (for I didn't want to make a bad impression). As we were driving, I noticed the town he was driving into wasn't too far from our house. It was also in some gated, and heavily secured community complex. From what I saw, most people living there were very rich. But most importantly, I noticed my dad had just about everything. He had the key to the gate AND the key to the house itself. I was beginning to wonder if there was anyone ever there. There wasn't. Apparently, his friend was moving out and let my dad have some stuff. We went back to fetch a dishwasher and a stove. I personally saw no need for a new stove, so I lied and tole him there wasn't enough room. He told me we'd have to come back for it later then. I was frustrated and silently agreed. We fetched the dishwasher and a few other small appliances, and drove off back home. I still continued to refuse to return. I even told my dad to come back tomorrow for the stove, but he really wanted to get it that very day. So at about 7:00PM EST, we returned to the complex to retrieve the stove. Although I noticed he was acting awfully suspicious last time we came, I noticed it more now. He was paranoid the neighbors would see him, so we waited for them to go inside. Finally, we took the stove out and shoved it in the back of the car. By now I was relived that this was the last piece to fetch from the house and could go back home and talk to her.as we made the turn that took us straight out to the exit, we noticed a cop standing in front of us with his hand in the "stop" motion. He approached the vehicle, and as he did so, he called out to the back, "Yeah! it's this one!" and suddenly another man came out from the perif. This man was Caucasian, wearing short sleeves and a bullet proof vest over it with the letters "SHERIF" written across it. He was beholding a tazer in his left hand as he quickly approached my side of the vehicle. He pointed it right at my face, and screamed, "HANDS UP! I WANT TO SEE YOUR HANDS UP!" and as my hands came up, he repeated the same phrase. At that very moment, the only thing I thought of in my mind was, "Haha, Stupid Floridians." I was obviously more calm than my dad. In a sense I was more embarrassed because he was acting like an amature; like he never got arrested. I calmly went and the man put me in handcuffs. As every other time before may have been about me, this time, It was not. I was the minor in this sense and I just hoped my dad wouldn't fuck things up. So I sat on the curb, handcuffed, and watched kids bicycle by. At that moment I noticed how stupid and judgmental society was. If you have tattoos, you are considered a felon or that you are part of a gang, and if you have handcuffs, people immediately assume you're getting arrested. At that point even, I grew such a great hate for humans and all of their kind. I myself wish I wasn't apart of such a stupefying society. But in the end, I can't change what I am, nor who I am, only what I'd become. Maybe someday, in the future, I will be able to change society, or maybe help mold society in a more harmonious fashion. Eventually, they all realized it was simply a big misunderstanding, so they let us go. It was the most awkward drive home ever. No talking no nothing. So i told my dad to stop by the gas station so I can buy myself some Green tea and chocolate. So he did so, and I did so. We came home and alas, I was relieved.

The Sunday after that wasn't all too interesting. I can honestly say i tried yet again to sleep the day away, but also, failed to do so again. It wasn't too activity filled or anything, simply moping around the house, not doing anything at all.

And then comes today, where I finally slept the WHOLE day away :D

I suppose all in all, I can't wait for July 5th of 2008!!! xD

Post 11: Of all the cliches and metaphores

I did it. I finally took all I had, and she hers, and went right for it. I told her everything. Summed up in a single phrase, one I'd never believe in again. But it's almost as if the more and more I attempted to deny it, the more and more it gave me reason not to. To something I used to refer to as the "4 letter lie" has now become one of the only explanations as to how I feel towards her. I will do at any cost to simply be WITH her, but, as everyone knows... nothing is perfect. And in our case, there are things in my way. Hopefully, this summer I'll fix these such problematic monotonies which seem to occur ever so often to me. I really wish that everything would be easy from here on. All I know, and all I care for, is being with her. I've been down in the dumps for so long... no matter how hard I tried convincing myself before that I wasn't, I was. And even when I thought I knocked out of my depression, I was still stuck... deep. But... the feeling she gives me, is (i swear) like no other! I mean, I won't lie and say I've never felt it before. But this time it's to such a higher degree... Sometimes it scares me, but most of all, it lightens me; as if gravity didn't apply to me, and I'm able to soar several stories into the air, and simply fly to her.

It's pretty ridiculous for me to say any of this but it's all true, 100% of it all.
I simply can't wait till this July when everything is in the clear, and I'll hold her in my arms. In essence, that's all I really want right now. Not just a hug, but her hug.

<3

Post 10: I Can't Help But Smile

So much has happened this past week. No. Month. But even so, she always kept me smiling. It's kind of funny, and yet kind of odd at the exact same time, as to how close I got to her (and she to me), yet I'm sure there's still a lot we don't know about each other. Heh, makes me scoff a little inside, because when I think about how long I've known her, and I think about how much I care about her, I can't help but think that maybe I'm living in a Disney-esk life. Where things like this happen so quickly and sometimes so unknowingly, it really catches you by surprise.

I recently saw this other girl's facebook, and I've come to a realization... Although we don't anymore, and although, there used to be SOMETHING there... The fact of the matter is, that there is nothing there anymore. Where as there might have been before, even the littlest bit, there's nothing there now. And it's a pity... I suppose, in essence, it's my fault. I let this happen. And i brought myself down for the longest time. Funny enough, someone like her can make me feel like I can achieve more than is humanly possible. As if I'm on top of the world. And bit by bit, I'm accomplishing tasks I never thought I'd accomplish. I care about her so much, It's hard for me to express through any form of art or expression. Whether it be music, visual arts, or even the verbal art. I suppose I hold back at times, but ill tell her truly when I see her. I won't hesitate.

++ Post 9: Up to par?

It's Already the end of April, and not TOO much has really been accomplished. I'm STILL waiting upon my exam scores, I'm STILL in Florida, and yes, I'm STILL unemployed. Apparently, the economy is so bad, that it's very hard to get a job. Yet I'm trying, one way or another, I need that money. So pretty much you can say that life is at a stand-still. Although, I am attempting to put up a clothing line but even THAT is beginning to have it's obvious downfall. In order for me to make a decent amount of money off the company I'm using, I'd need a LOT of people out there to actually just go to the site and buy at least one-two items. But even in that scenario, I'd need multiple people going at once or just in general.


Meh. hopefully have better luck next time? /:

++ Post 8: Karma is a bitch

I hate my life. I always have. Why does it keep coming back to this? It's not like I do anything wrong. I wanted change, and here it is. Moral of the story: Be careful for what you wish for.



/:

++ Post 7: Change is Good

   Hey guys! It's been a while since I ACTUALLY wrote in here, but let me keep you up to date as to what's new.

++- Well in recent news, I've attained 3 more designer programs to my ever so dying batch,: Flash 8, Illustrator CS3, and DreamWeaver CS3 which came with several programs itself. Reason i got a little outdated version for flash was mostly because it's the version im more comfortable with. I didn't feel like learning NEW tools and NEW rules to the AS (Action Script) and rather just stick with what I knew.

++- Another new this is, you may have notices my top banner for my blogspot is actually flash integrated and so is the navigation bar underneath it. Now, the banner of course works, but currently I'm working on fixing the navigation bar for it doesn't seem to actually work when you click the links (even though on my own computer offline, it seems to work just fine). So I'll fix a few bugs here and there and see how it all goes.

++- Currently STILL unemployed so please please PLEASE, if anyone out there just so happens to be reading this, please let me know if you'd like me to work for you, or even freelance, since I do freelance as well. I'll post my resume soon as well as my freelancing contract but if you are interested, then simply email me at ltrademark@hotail.com and I will send you a copy myself (maybe even conduct some business. Sorry to say, but I am in desperate need of a job and am willing to do whatever it takes to make the costumer/consumer happy and content with their product (whether it be website design or art, ill do it). I also accept payment in paypal or in checks. If you live in the Fort Lauderdale (Florida) area, I am urged to have you contact me A.S.A.P. I will be available for work immediately! If this does happen to occur recently though, I will have to be asked to possibly be excused April 2nd and 3rd, for that day I have my last Graphic Arts exam which I need to pass in order to full-fill my course expectations. For more information please email me.

++- Lastly, my birthday is in 3 months, Canada trip is supposedly in 4 months, and anything and EVERYTHING else is undecided. In other words, time is an essence, and I seem to be running short. I will try to succeed, but who knows where that will get me.

(In refferance to the fist point, If you would like to obtain any of the programs above, then for a limited time only, I'll be giving it away for FREE! so come get a copy now before it's TOO LATE!)

++ Post 6: Some things come, some things go

It's almost the next day as I'm writing this. Friday to be more exact. The search for a job has become more crucial than ever now, and I will do anything to get one. Also in recent new, I'm going more and more broke by the moment, and my family decided to get a puppy.

Meet Coco. Shes a mixed breed of lab and German Sheppard. Only four months old, cute and cuddly. Shes been at my house for approx. 3 days now, today being the 4th. She's also gotten very attached to me, which in my sense I don't like very much. This is mainly because I was the one in opposition into obtaining a dog in my parents current financial position. But never the less, there is no turning back now. Life is most definitely slightly different. But yet, I still am overcome with that feeling of loneliness... I suppose I just want someone to hug; someone to cuddle; someone whom I enjoy being with. A friend. A local friend. But I guess until then, I'll live my life how it is now... If i get a chance later today, and don't oversleep, I'll attempt to go apply for that job and/or jobs around my area. For the mean time, while I am in my house, I'll attempt to build my portfolio and apply for jobs online. It's my best chance at at least SOMETHING! /:

++ Post 5: VLOG

++ Post 4: more?! why?

Another waste?! how can that be so D:, I woke up at around 2PM and went to drive around for a bit. Got bored and went home. Came home and sat in front of the computer all day looking at some movies and stuff that could possibly keep me entertained for the next several hours. It was an epic fail. So now I'm STILL in front of my monitor screens simply typing away while i am on stickam and facebook. meh. maybe tomorrow/today will be better? lets wait and see...

++ Post 3: Blank

Wow. How does one have a productive ass day, then completely do nothing the next? I suppose we all have our moments /:

++ Post 2: Things lookin' up

oday was rather an interesting day by far. You know, I've been noticing lately, my life truly has been looking up. Although my social is still sort of weak, everything else seems to be slowly rising to its positive. Recently, I found out I may only be weeks away from finishing school, got my cell phone RE-activated (with some strings attached, but I'll live), and of course my privilege to drive a motor vehicle. My mood has also been more positive, although I still contain the ever-so typical pessimistic outlook on life. All I'm missing now are friends (locally) and a Job. I prefer to get the job first and proceed with my social life.

I must say though, my life really has been looking up and I'm enjoying every moment of it. It's almost as if I'm regaining my freedom that I've once childishly lost. It's actually rather invigorating knowing that, somehow, someway, everything will be alright. As comforting as is a cozy pillow and a warm blanket on a frigid winter night. Lovely. I miss cuddling, actually. And warm friendly hugs. I really miss all of that. I want it all back and I will stop at nothing to do so. [Sigh] If anything though, I'm pretty content with what I have now. No more holding back; I'll continue running, but this time in the right direction, towards my problems, not away from them. This is a time for change. For me and hopefully fro this world. I'm sure we've all noticed all the bullshit that has been occurring throughout todays society. We should do something to stop it all! We have a voice; we have a mind. Our minds should be as one, not segregated. Segregation is what brings conflict upon everything and diversity is the ignorant mind set of people. No it's not a hippie statement and your a fucking idiot to think so. It's a legitimate self-expressed mindset that it actually appropriate for this time period. I finally see what Lennon was talking about, what all the famous stars that attempted to make their voice heard; I understand now. Maybe... I shouldn't have so much hope in humans. No one will ever agree on what's right and whats wrong, mainly because "right" or "wrong" is nonexistent. It's a diversion created for the human mind, BY the human mind in order to create diversity. It's also the easy way out, and if there's anything I have learned from life so far, is that the easy way out never gets you anywhere. In fact, the easy way out gets you only to where you last started. To get anywhere, you have to work for it. If you are still in high school, make your decision now. Now from what you want to do in your life, but what you simply want to do! You honestly won't know what you will want to do as a career probably until your 20's. Some are lucky and know earlier on, but in general, you wont know until you are positive of what sort of future you desire to pursue.

Well, thats all I got for today, stay tuned for next time (: ALSO! e-mail me posting topics you would like for me/us to discuss! the email is listed either above or on my blogger profile. Take care everyone! much <3

++ Post 1: Introduction

Hey Guys! well since this is the first post, I really don't know what to write about aside from my day, so here it goes!

My day was alright for the most part. Didn't quite sleep until 9ish AM. I was more or less bored, seeing as to how I really really wanted to sleep, but i was too distracted. Eventually, after a few calming games of tetris, I picked up the guitar and strummed a few. I got bored, as usual, so i simply lay on my bed, on my back-side, and slowly drifted into slumber. Eventually I woke up and realized it was almost time for class. I quickly scurried for some articles of clothing laying near me and swiftly put them on. My mom eventually knocked on my door and warned me to get ready as usual. I went to my 2 hour class and got my folders and sat there. Unfortunately, the teacher called me over and told me hes deciding to test me today. So, being the ever so willing student I am, I unwillingly agreed and he tested me so. The mini-exam was based upon the mathematics portion of my course. Knowing that I'm mathematically handicapped, I did oh so very poorly on it. I took it twice and did miserably on both. As sad faced as i was, this wasn't the end of the word, because I knew it wasn't the real deal, it was only the practice exam. At that moment of finding out, I felt so relieved, I simply just wanted to go home. Nothing much mattered except going to the store on my way home, picking up a few snacks, and going home to my small room, where id take off unnecessary clothing and get comfortable as I sit on my very uncomfortable chair, and chat with friends online. I know, I know. It's not the most productive or fun thing to do, but It's... something... I guess. It's my monotonously routine life as of now, and that's how things have been since the public was last concerned. Hi, my name is Leo, I'm 17 years old, I live in the state of Florida (and I hate the south!), this is my life and I want out!